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I was recently very disturbed when I saw a new advertisement from Cheerios Canada for their ‘Bring Back The Bees‘ campaign. Now the ad itself isn’t offensive – in fact it’s a cute ‘call to action’ to plant sunflowers using free seeds provided by Cheerios as a food source for the bees to help restore the bee population. On the surface that sounds to be a commendable and socially conscious thing for the company to do, however this advertising campaign is highly misleading. In all of the studies I have read and looked at concerning colony collapse disorder in bees, not one mentions lack of food as the cause for the alarming decline of world wide bee populations. However, one thing that the studies show is linked to colony collapse in bees are the agricultural chemicals used in spraying crops such as corn and wheat – ironically two of the main ingredients in Cheerios.
Call me old school, but I come from a generation before there was such a thing as ‘ghosting’. A time when people had respect for each other in the dating world, and if things fell apart or if someone wanted to leave a relationship there was a proper ending, and closure given. Yes, there was such a thing known as the ‘disappearing act’ in the past however it was not a common thing. It wasn’t an acceptable behavior and only reserved for dishonest scumbags with no morals or social etiquette.
This morning I was sitting on my back deck with a steaming hot cup of coffee thinking about what I was going to do today, and low and behold – what flew up over the fence and decided to station itself in the air two feet away from my face and look at me for about five seconds?
Through the last few years, I have embarked on an incredible and epic journey towards health, wellness, and becoming an all round better person. What sparked this was a diagnosis of Type 1 Bipolar disorder (see my article here), coupled with a complete collapse of my life and hitting that ‘rock bottom’ moment that many of us experience.
For some reason I have been very deep in thought and introspection this week. Maybe it’s because there was a full moon last night, and traditionally full moons are a time of release. Thinking of what I need to let go of – people, old patterns of behavior, old thoughts, old dramas, bad memories, material things. Getting rid of what no longer serves my highest good. Walking away from everything and anything that is toxic in my life.
Narcissism – the personality disorder where the ‘patient’ (the narcissist) rarely seeks treatment, but the survivors around them almost always need treatment for the serious psychological damage caused to them by the ‘patient’. As a survivor of childhood narcissistic abuse I can attest to the fact that it caused major psychological, emotional, and spiritual damage that still affects me today as an adult.
In 2016 I embarked on a massive journey towards self improvement and growth. The problem with doing something like this was the ‘onion’ effect. What was the onion effect in regards to my personal growth? Well I peeled back one layer and thought I was finished, only to discover there was yet another layer under the one I just removed, then another, and another, and another etc.
I am a 45 year old divorced single mother, and almost my entire life I was a pushover – that’s four decades of allowing people to use me and not treat me with respect. A lot of this came from the fact that I am highly empathic and a genuinely kind person who tends to see the good in people while at the same time ignoring the bad. An ‘over giver’. Constantly giving to other people at my own expense and I rarely received anything in return.
A lot of us use this phrase towards others in our lives every day, but how many of us can stand in front of a mirror, look ourselves in the eyes, and honestly say this to the person looking back at us? Sometimes that is easier said than done.
Why would this be difficult?
Why do so many of us feel unworthy of love?
Why do a large percentage of us people get stuck in toxic and codependent relationships afraid to leave because we are scared to be alone?
When I first began my journey in 2016 towards health and well being I eventually ended up in a place where I am now effectively managing Type 1 Bipolar disorder. The thing that made the most significant impact for me in being able to manage this illness was drastically changing my diet.
One of the most important things for anyone whether or not they are dealing with mental health issues is self care. Often in life we put ourselves last and fall into the category of martyrdom where we prioritize the needs of everyone else over our own and then we blame these people for our unhappiness.
‘You have Bipolar Disorder. This is a lifelong illness and it will get worse as you age. Here is a prescription for some medications for you to take that can help you manage the condition, but understand they may reduce your life expectancy and they will unfortunately cause unpleasant side effects. I will see you for your next appointment in two weeks’
And so it begins….day one of me stepping into the world of blogging. I am not sure how to do all of this ‘blogging’ stuff, but I decided to begin writing one to bring awareness to mental health issues. In 2015 I was officially diagnosed with Type 1 Bipolar Disorder after a psychiatric evaluation and this diagnosis brought devastation in my life because my prognosis at the time was very grim.
Hi my name is Jen and I blog about various topics such as mental health issues, healthy eating, and simple living. I am also a crochet designer, so please feel free to check out my free patterns page :)